Ten days ago, an OS project with similar goals as this one officially died. It wasn’t a noisy event, really : the domain of its website, which had been continuously displaying an “I don’t have time now but I’ll be back when I can” message for a few years, simply went down since the OS author did not even bother to pay for it anymore. On the OSnews article reporting the event, there were a few sad comments, but overall most people seemed to have understandably made up their minds a long while ago, when the only developer said that he couldn’t carry on development because a freshly born baby took his mind elsewhere. And that was pretty much it. RIP, SkyOS.
It’s something which I’ve been regularly thinking about for some time now. The “optimal” period of time to have children in an adult’s life isn’t so long, and my girlfriend has made it pretty clear that she wants a couple. Even if I don’t feel as passionate about it, I don’t have a problem with that either. Sounds like an interesting thing to experience, after all. But looking around, I know the price : for ten years at least, I’ll probably have to give up on any kind of time-consuming hobby, possibly including sleep, and dedicate as much free time as I can to the pretty parasite. What this effectively means for TOSP is that when I reach this time, the project must be mature enough for someone younger to want to take over, and actually do it. Otherwise, it’s as good as dead.
Consequently, at the pace I’m currently going, TOSP is not going to make it. I need to find a way to spend much more time on it, and do so more efficiently. More generally, I need to make better use of my free time anyway : the way I’m currently doing, throwing myself in front of animes for whole evenings because I can’t find the energy to do better, only lets my to-do lists grow longer in a depressing manner. I understood it when my girlfriend recently came to visit a whole week for the first time : it’s not sleep, hormones, or another body problem, the issue lies somewhere in my mind. What I’ve yet to grasp, though, is what it is, and how to overcome it.
And it’s not as if I had so much time left to figure it out…